|Inside - Outside
||[Nov. 20th, 2004|06:54 pm]
The nice thing with writing is that you can show what is inside, and not be impeded by what you got used to show to the outside. I am looking from the inside, not the outside. And everybody does so, in some way, though they don't usually realize this. I only picture the inside, not the outside. The outside is rather boring, at least it is to me. This is because I can't see it, so I have to describe it as an indifferent observer. I prefer conversing with my inner self rather than expounding the outer one. I am much more tightly related to my inner self, I know it much better and can play with it at will, re-organize it and re-arrange its relations with everything, since everything is under my control.
Though I do have fun making the inside get out and experience the wild. At one point, the process will be achieved. For now, it is only experimental, and very surprising and amusing.
Also, probably from the same line of thought: The more people listen to me, the happier I am. This is because I am not there to express myself. I am there to get people to listen to me.
Which then of course leads into very complicated considerations devised to "prove" that the more you reveal of yourself the more people will listen to you, enjoy the experience. As long as they don't know where the energy comes from. You have to hide to show. Don't let yourself go in the way of your self-expression. The best option is to disclaim any of what you express as your own. Don't put your ego behind what you say.
Of course this is ultra top secret and any person revealing this will be shot without trial. I am of the "take no prisoners" school of thought.
This entry will auto-destruct right after you read it, its digital tidbytes dissolving into the Internet ocean, broken and humbled by its all forgiving but altogether too impressive indifference.