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Inside - Outside [Nov. 20th, 2004|06:54 pm]
Saravana
The nice thing with writing is that you can show what is inside, and not be impeded by what you got used to show to the outside. I am looking from the inside, not the outside. And everybody does so, in some way, though they don't usually realize this. I only picture the inside, not the outside. The outside is rather boring, at least it is to me. This is because I can't see it, so I have to describe it as an indifferent observer. I prefer conversing with my inner self rather than expounding the outer one. I am much more tightly related to my inner self, I know it much better and can play with it at will, re-organize it and re-arrange its relations with everything, since everything is under my control.

Though I do have fun making the inside get out and experience the wild. At one point, the process will be achieved. For now, it is only experimental, and very surprising and amusing.

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Also, probably from the same line of thought: The more people listen to me, the happier I am. This is because I am not there to express myself. I am there to get people to listen to me.

Which then of course leads into very complicated considerations devised to "prove" that the more you reveal of yourself the more people will listen to you, enjoy the experience. As long as they don't know where the energy comes from. You have to hide to show. Don't let yourself go in the way of your self-expression. The best option is to disclaim any of what you express as your own. Don't put your ego behind what you say.

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Of course this is ultra top secret and any person revealing this will be shot without trial. I am of the "take no prisoners" school of thought.

This entry will auto-destruct right after you read it, its digital tidbytes dissolving into the Internet ocean, broken and humbled by its all forgiving but altogether too impressive indifference.
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[User Picture]From: keshet29
2004-11-20 11:18 am (UTC)
Oh, no! I'm too young to die!

I really like your writing lately, it has been more emotive and expressive. It's a joy to see your inner workings.

And, yeah, we really do express to be understood.

And, conversely, it sucks when we're not. Bah.
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[User Picture]From: saravana
2004-11-20 12:32 pm (UTC)
This is fun, I was just going to comment on your recent entry.

What I write here is sadly only the tip of the iceberg, as I have lost some interest in LJ, or at least in writing in this journal (I do keep enjoying your entries, they are a big reward for continuing to peruse my friendlist). This probably puts a higher threshold for what I write (i.e. it becomes more "interesting"), but on the matter of style, it is lower as I do not care anymore about who reads (and so few people still do, which is OK really, I have stopped adding people anyway, and there is natural attrition of the existing readers).
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[User Picture]From: loreeley
2004-11-20 02:36 pm (UTC)

random fact absolutely not connected to your post

I'm watching Abba-mania and it's making me very happy.
I just needed to tell someone so I told you - so now you can shot me, I don't care.
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[User Picture]From: saravana
2004-11-21 01:22 am (UTC)

Re: random fact absolutely not connected to your post

We will grant an hearing before a martial court. THEN we will shoot you.

No seriously, you have to write about it, I don't know about them. Is that related to the group?
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[User Picture]From: loreeley
2004-11-21 01:20 pm (UTC)
Yes it is. Other artists sing the songs. The man who sang my favorite was so horrible in every way, but apart from that it was nice.
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